New Day Resolution - No meal skipping anymore!

Did you watch it on the news yesterday? Hell froze over! The reason was sadly not that BP finally succeeded in plugging their oil gusher, but me shopping and buying a skirt. I never wore skirts (or sandals) because I felt vulnerable in them. I still do, but as with blouses I think it all comes down to training. So the more I wear them, the more comfortable I will feel in them. I started out with sandals today, since I want my legs to look a bit less cheesy when I wear the skirt. (Tanning lotion!)

This is the first skirt I tried on (in a decade) to see what style works for me. Funnily it looks better in the picture than in real life, so I didn't buy this one. (I was really surprised when I looked at this picture in the evening. The camera and my self perception both lie.) I definitely don't like this frilly and floral stuff on me, I stick to the classics when it comes to clothes. Grace Kelly and Audrey Hepburn are my style inspiration.

In the end I bought this black, slightly shorter and more classic skirt and I will wear it.


But I probably won't wear it with this t-shirt.


Anyway, over the last few days I noticed a trend with my eating habits, which is quite counterproductive in my quest to get rid of body fat and getting fit. I tend to skip dinner, only to eat uncontrollably afterwards. This isn't good for my glands and my bowels, but good for my body fat (it gets more food).

So todays resolutions are:
A) No more meal skipping: I'll eat breakfast, lunch and dinner. No more snacking in between.
B) Finishing tasks.

On B, I'm really scatterbrained lately, I can't seem to finish the tasks I started in one go. This consumes way too much time and energy that I need for other stuff, so I'll concentrate on finishing tasks in one go.

Those two are quite challenging, so I'll keep working on them for the next weeks.

Except for that I do my strength drills and enjoy the sunny and warm weather (ca. 80° the last two days). Tonight I'll meet with my fellow runner and hawaiian room mate D. What a fun week!

KEEP MOVING FORWARD!!!

Lovely Spring Day and the ugly truth

Finally warm and sunny weather in Leipzig. I plan to celebrate it with a fast walk back home as a training session. Which is something I desperately need.

Why? Well, yesterday I finally came to realize the ugly truth when I looked at a mirror wearing a black tank top. I've got muffin tops and to make matters worse they are huge! No kidding.

"Tools are meant to teach you how to get to a certain point, a point where you can eventually let them go. They can show you the door, but it's up to you, and only you, to walk through." Sera Beak "The Red Book" p. 196

So what I realized when I read this was that I had stepped through this door several times, but I always turned around at some point and sat down in my armchair of bad behaviour and nonmovement. And this did not happen because there was nothing interesting happening at the other side of the door, no, I always turned around when I saw that it worked out fine for me!

Am I afraid of success and what it entails? Probably.

This could also be the reason, why I'm still without a new job. I do everything to sabotage myself and acting like the ostrich. Means over the last few months I either fled into the blogworld, some fantasy stories I made up myself or put my head under my pillow (I don't like sand that much;-)! And filled up with sweets!!! Which led to some weight gain.

Now, how to break through these patterns?! I have the necessary tools! Now I just need to step through that door and don't look back, just make one step after another. I'll have to close this door behind me forever.

Sera says treat yourself like a goddess on page 165 (though on another background). And I'll do so from now on, only the best and healthiest food I will put in my body. I'll treat myself with care, pampering myself from head to toe. Time to become the person I want to and can be. So the picture of treating me like a goddess works best for me at the moment, even though I find the other sentence hilarious. "Treat myself like a goddess, my ass, that's for airy-fairy girls; I want to treat myself like an active volcano!" p. 165 So funny.

I'll start out with eating healthy Thai food and some red bell pepper and radish for lunch and a massive omega 3 week. No unhealthy sweets anymore.

So, yesterday I took a look at my blind spot: Me.

KEEP MOVING FORWARD!